In which I babble on about my tedious adventures

[albadger]

I'm out of the habit of babbling on about my tedious adventures -- used to putting up a sentence or two on Facebook, expanding to a Haiku on Fridays, no more -- but no way to get started again but to get started. Let me know if I'm not doing it right.

• A friend died Wednesday; a great guy, but I hadn't seen him for several years. Too young. His memorial is going to be on Monday. On Friday I went to the rehearsal for the semi-staged reading of "Love's Labour's Lost", which is to be done on Monday. I didn't have the courage to tell the director I wouldn't be able to continue.
• Saturday: bigredpaul was set to perform in a fundraiser at the Edge, & invited me to come see his act. I drove into SF, picked Paul up, dropped him off at the bar, & found parking. When I walked into the bar I was overwhelmed by anxiety, and left right away. I tried calming myself down with a quesadilla but my crowd-phobia kept building to the point where I couldn't stand being among the people at the taqueria, or even the crowd on the street. I texted Paul & drove home.
• Still Saturday: I worked up the nerve to call the director and let him know I won't be able to do the reading, after which I desperately needed caffeine.
• Still Saturday: good friends Mike & Georgia call; they were going to the Eddie Izzard show & wanted to have dinner with me ahead of time. I agreed hesitantly, not wanting to be among people. Japanese cuisine. The reason they wanted to meet, really, was to tell me that they are moving away from the Bay Area, to Loomis. It's a good move for them, & I won't see any less of them, since I haven't seen that much of them for the last few years. Still.
• Still Saturday: progbear talks me into going to see the Imaginarium of Doctor Parnassus, and in a hurry, since it's been allowed into theaters for about 15 minutes. I'm glad I took him up on that, even though at times I wanted to bolt, just from the small grouping of humans in the small auditorium. It's an amazing movie, if you can handle Gilliam's style (clearly most movie reviewers can't). Expect the same critics who hate this now to call it a masterpiece in 10 years.
• Sunday: I set my alarm for 8am to get up for grocery shopping, and then sleep until 11am. I need to shop but I don't want to see other shoppers. Does the local Safeway deliver?

End of ramble. Like I said, I'm out of practice. With a lot of things.

Comments

Loss and Restoration

[hardybear.livejournal.com]

That was very sad about George, wasn't it?

I think everyone is getting a bit crazy from all this rain. After so many years of drought, we're not prepared for it. Too much gloom.

Bring on the the Springtime! Quick!

[wet-in-sf.livejournal.com]

Sounds to me like you need a massive dose of "Al Time". Yes, Safeway delivers if you order online.

[bearhedded.livejournal.com]

I had a crowd-panic attack in the middle of a gay bar, once..... the place was jammed, and it was all I could do, not to climb up on top of the clientel, and crawl across their shoulders to get out of there!

Sorry for that, and your friend dying.

I liked Parnassus.... for the looks, anyway.

The dummy in the door and the balloon with all the faces seem to be ripped off from a friend of mine! I've tried to hint about it to him, but I don't want to spoil the surprize!

[thornyc.livejournal.com]

Hope you feel better soon.

[maxauburn.livejournal.com]

I'm sorry about your friend.

I understand the fear of social situations.. crowds of
humans can be so intimidating.

Part of me wants to tell you to just power through it all,
and just brave your own fears, but being human, it's just not always that simple.

I think perhaps you need a vacation. Time away from all the crap in your life that's stressing you out.

Big hugs, Al.

[mrdreamjeans.livejournal.com]

I hope you can overcome your anxiety in crowds. I am not comfortable unless I'm stage and the crowd is in the audience and paid money:) I don't care if you're out of practice or not, I am happy to see a post from you.

HUGS!